This is the way it should begin again

If I wrote at all this summer, which I didn't do even once, I would only have the beginning of this school year to catch up. However, summer was crazy... intense... a time of growing so I think it deserves a recap. So much happened and combined with my love for details I am afraid I will bore you if I post everything in one post, but I guess I will try and if I think this is getting a little lengthy I'll split things up. Well now that we have this long intro out of the way allow me to tell you about my summer.....

My summerwas not simple but it simply consisted of a few things: work at my new job (Dick's Sporting Goods), Bible Bridge (the hardest 6 units I have ever worked for), a little bit of free time, and... a boy.

First let me tell you what Bible Bridge is. Since I chose to transfer to Biola I have to minor in Biblical Studies. Not a bad concept since I chose to attend a Christian school. However there is a catch, most students have 4 years to spread this out but since I am transferring in as a junior I only have 2 years to complete that along with my major. In order to try and graduate in 2 years I needed some help. Bible Bridge is a way to get 2 classes done over the summer. It was 6 weeks online, a one week break (unless like me you used it for unfinished homework), then 2 weeks of on campus work from 8am to 3 pm everyday. Sounds intense right? Well, yes it was. Probably the most work I have ever done in my life and it mentally drained me trying to balance it with everything else in my life. There are so many things I could say about Bible Bridge but I'll leave you with this. It was extremely intense with work all the time and caused some mental breakdowns, but I made some amazing friends out of it and for those I am so thankful.

I guess it is now time to move on to Dick's (let out all your chuckles now, I have heard all the jokes). Working here caused me to learn a lot about myself and relationships.... at a sporting goods store, who would have thought? I don't think I have ever enjoyed a job so much. Maybe that's why I'm still working there on the occasional weekend, but I must say it's not as great as it was in the beginning. Being one of the few girls among many guys really did a lot for my confidence. Not because of attention, but because I learned how to assert myself and be okay with who I am. I bet some people are curious about this boy I mentioned earlier... we met at work. I'm not going to share all the details of everything because if you know me than you know the important stuff, but I'll mention him. Bad Boy. Or at least that's what everyone thought. He had a dark faux hawk and eyes that I could see straight through. I didn't think anything of him but then he swept me off my feet and won me over. Thats when we hopped onto a roller coaster. Neither of us really knew what we wanted or told the other. It was a lot of back and forth of who liked who. Yeah... not so great. Basically before I moved here things were good or so I thought and then they fell apart. Some of the worst pain I have ever experienced. I wish things ended better but there is no going back. I still dont think he knows how hurt I really was, all I can hope though is that I made some sort of impact on him. As much as everyone around me may not like him because of everything that happened I still care about him because I don't think he has many people in his life like me. Everyone can say what they want but like all summer, I'm going to make my own decisions and learn from them. It's still hard sometimes, but I'm moving on and I'll be okay. As I have had everyone tell me, "God has someone better in store for you". I believe it.... I just dont like the waiting game.

This is getting long and I'm probably loosing your attention if you've made it this far. This was a VERY short recap for everything I felt. Summer was intense, crazy, fun, difficult, changing, growing, happy, sad, and most of all memorable. There were things I wished I could change at the time but I believe everything happens for a reason so I wouldn't change a thing.

I kept my sanity by simple nights with friends, late night conversations and early morning texts, trips to San Diego and the motoGP. Oh and a Taylor Swift Concert started off the summer!

It's been too long...

I am finally back (not that anyone really reads this)! I don't have the time for a full update right now but let's just say that I am typing this from my dorm... yes dorm. Just down the page a little you will see a post about my visit to Biola, well guess what? I'm here now! Crazy right?? So an entire summer has passed (and what a summer it was), we have a lot to catch up on friends. I really feel like writing, but homework assignments MUST be done. I'm really motivated to do them now in hopes of being able to blog tonight. So I'm going to go do that now, hopefully I'll be back soon!

PS... It's raining right now and it makes me so happy :)

Here's a look at my dorm (it's been changed around since this)


And here's Emily aka the best friend here.

Summer Nights

Yes, I am well aware that it is still very early on in the Spring, but have you stepped outside within the past few days? It is summer weather right now in Southern California. The heat could be much worse, but lets face it, the warmth we (I) have been hoping for is here and in full force.

The upside to all of this? The feeling of a summer night. I love being able to hear the crickets from outside in the still, warm, air. Not the kind of Vegas heat with a slight breeze we feel during the day but a good temperature drop cooler. Not cold, not hot, but right there in the happy medium. It puts me in such a peaceful mood and makes me want to go sit on my porch with my iPod. It also takes me back to all my fond memories of summer nights after graduation. Great times. Unfortunately it is not summer yet and I have school in the morning so that wont be happening tonight. So goodnight World, sleep well. ♥

PS... looking for any new music? My recommendation would be Eye Alaska's new song called Walk Like A Gentleman. You can hear it on their myspace for now until it is released on iTunes.

The Best Day

Today went so well that I feel completely inspired to write about it.
As you may or may not know (sorry if you didn't) I have been accepted to Biola University. After long talks with myself and many others about the financial commitment and being ready to move out, I felt God telling me that it is where I belonged and I accepted. I have had many questions and some slight concerns so I figured the best thing to do is pick and day and make a visit to the school and talk with someone... today was that day. I am so glad I made this trip and I'm feeling much more prepared and excited. The day started with no traffic on the way there, Friday morning on the I5 with no traffic, how great is that?! When I got there the first thing I did was meet with my counselor. He was great and I couldn't believe how much time I spent talking with him. He made me feel much more sure of myself although my load is going to be quite hefty EVERY semester. Most importantly he was encouraging and gave me a well needed sense of direction. I couldn't ask for a better counselor and I look forward to working with him more during my time there.
Afterwards we took a tour of the school and I must say that it is much bigger than I ever realized. I saw everything from the classrooms to the dorms to the field. It is such a beautiful school and I cant wait to be a part of that environment. Once the tour was over, my dad, Ari, and I went and had lunch in the caf. I will definitely enjoy that part of Biola! Seriously, so delish! All in all, a great visit. One more thing that I feel important to note... the guys. The Christian boys there are much different then the ones I see everyday. They look at you as a person, not an object whose clothes they want to rip off. Its a sort of maturity and respect that you dont see often.
Next semester is going to be a great experience and I cant wait to see what God has in store for me!

"I have an excellent father, his strength is making me stronger".
I am thankful to know my heavenly father but I am also so thankful for the earthly one He has given me. I love my dad and I appreciate everything he done for me, without him this all wouldnt be possible ♥

SYTYCD

I have just been so moved that I felt compelled to write about it. Over the summer my favorite show is without a doubt, So You Think You Can Dance. There is currently nothing to watch on TV so I was going through the our DVR recordings and came across the season finale of SYTYCD. Of course I had to watch it, I knew I had it saved for a reason. They just showed the Bleeding Love dance and I was reminded of how breath taking it truly was. It amazes me how much someones talent can move you. It gave me chills and here I am to share it with you. Enjoy.

Long Island to the 90210

I'll start off by saying this will need to be a quick post. Hopefully I can accomplish such a task! So here it goes since my laptop is running out of battery and I'm not near an outlet.

I haven't been keeping up with this blog as frequently as I used to when I first got it... I guess it's just not the hippest thing to do lately! But I do feel the need to use it when the time is right, like today! Push Play has been in town for a few days now, in and out of meetings, and I am just so proud of them! Finally these boys are going to take a label, they got themselves pretty far but they need the support of major label with the release of their next album. It's so exciting to see someone I know personally doing something incredible like this. They have come so far, and they did it on their own(they wouldn't have it any other way). Quite a task in the industry these days!

I just wanted to tell you all to be on the lookout for them. Pretty soon they'll have a home at a label, a new CD, and they'll be spending a lot more time out here in California which is the most exciting thing to me! Plus, I got to see them today since they put on a small acoustic show in Beverly Hills so that was fun! I adore them and wish them all the best. They deserve it!

Now it's time for me to call it a night!

Oh and one last note- I could care less what anyone thinks about me spending time with bands. They're just normal guys who are my age and fun to be around. And its really only them and AllStar that I talk to. All the "groupie" comments... just ridiculous.

One size does not fit all

I haven't written anything in a little over a week yet I feel like I abandoned a child. I am writing a little something right now because I am frustrated... with my mouth. You are probably puzzled so I shall explain. My smile is not very wide if you may or may not have noticed. This makes going to the dentist a painful task. For example, when they want to take an x-ray and they shove the little piece of I dont even know what it is, in your mouth and you have to hold it there. Or when they have a million things in your mouth poking at your teeth. Granted, I know that no one enjoys this, but most of those tools fit inside a full adult mouth, and mine is more like a childs size. You cant even imagine how sore my jaw is at the end of each visit and how frustrating it is when the dentist asks you to open wider and it is not physically possible.

I haven't been to the dentist in a couple months so I'll tell you what the most recent cause of my grief is. Today I decided to buy whitestrips for my teeth as a simple attempt to enjoy my tiny mouth a little more. Well it is not so easy. First, the strip for the top of your teeth is ridiculously long... and doesn't fit in my mouth very well :( My smile is just not wide enough, then the bottom strip is really thick which present another problem. My bottom teeth aren't that large so the strip is a little big for me. These are definitely not one size fits all!

This was rather pointless and not well written but it killed some time for me! Only ten more minutes with these bad boys and I can go to sleep!

PS... here is a new picture of my little nephew from when I went to San Diego this weekend.