If I wrote at all this summer, which I didn't do even once, I would only have the beginning of this school year to catch up. However, summer was crazy... intense... a time of growing so I think it deserves a recap. So much happened and combined with my love for details I am afraid I will bore you if I post everything in one post, but I guess I will try and if I think this is getting a little lengthy I'll split things up. Well now that we have this long intro out of the way allow me to tell you about my summer.....
My summerwas not simple but it simply consisted of a few things: work at my new job (Dick's Sporting Goods), Bible Bridge (the hardest 6 units I have ever worked for), a little bit of free time, and... a boy.
First let me tell you what Bible Bridge is. Since I chose to transfer to Biola I have to minor in Biblical Studies. Not a bad concept since I chose to attend a Christian school. However there is a catch, most students have 4 years to spread this out but since I am transferring in as a junior I only have 2 years to complete that along with my major. In order to try and graduate in 2 years I needed some help. Bible Bridge is a way to get 2 classes done over the summer. It was 6 weeks online, a one week break (unless like me you used it for unfinished homework), then 2 weeks of on campus work from 8am to 3 pm everyday. Sounds intense right? Well, yes it was. Probably the most work I have ever done in my life and it mentally drained me trying to balance it with everything else in my life. There are so many things I could say about Bible Bridge but I'll leave you with this. It was extremely intense with work all the time and caused some mental breakdowns, but I made some amazing friends out of it and for those I am so thankful.
I guess it is now time to move on to Dick's (let out all your chuckles now, I have heard all the jokes). Working here caused me to learn a lot about myself and relationships.... at a sporting goods store, who would have thought? I don't think I have ever enjoyed a job so much. Maybe that's why I'm still working there on the occasional weekend, but I must say it's not as great as it was in the beginning. Being one of the few girls among many guys really did a lot for my confidence. Not because of attention, but because I learned how to assert myself and be okay with who I am. I bet some people are curious about this boy I mentioned earlier... we met at work. I'm not going to share all the details of everything because if you know me than you know the important stuff, but I'll mention him. Bad Boy. Or at least that's what everyone thought. He had a dark faux hawk and eyes that I could see straight through. I didn't think anything of him but then he swept me off my feet and won me over. Thats when we hopped onto a roller coaster. Neither of us really knew what we wanted or told the other. It was a lot of back and forth of who liked who. Yeah... not so great. Basically before I moved here things were good or so I thought and then they fell apart. Some of the worst pain I have ever experienced. I wish things ended better but there is no going back. I still dont think he knows how hurt I really was, all I can hope though is that I made some sort of impact on him. As much as everyone around me may not like him because of everything that happened I still care about him because I don't think he has many people in his life like me. Everyone can say what they want but like all summer, I'm going to make my own decisions and learn from them. It's still hard sometimes, but I'm moving on and I'll be okay. As I have had everyone tell me, "God has someone better in store for you". I believe it.... I just dont like the waiting game.
This is getting long and I'm probably loosing your attention if you've made it this far. This was a VERY short recap for everything I felt. Summer was intense, crazy, fun, difficult, changing, growing, happy, sad, and most of all memorable. There were things I wished I could change at the time but I believe everything happens for a reason so I wouldn't change a thing.
I kept my sanity by simple nights with friends, late night conversations and early morning texts, trips to San Diego and the motoGP. Oh and a Taylor Swift Concert started off the summer!
No comments:
Post a Comment